distance and relations
Of late, i haven't been able to keep in touch with my high school friends. i don't know what to talk to them about and i don't want to end up talking too much. More than often i have realized that i give away my entire life's history without them sharing more than what happened to them yesterday, and i really feel like an idiot afterward for having such a big trap for a mouth.
But this results in me knowing lesser and lesser about them leading to shorter and shorter conversations until finally we seem to lose touch. I have always been bad in keeping touch with people, but it really saddens me when friends that were once close treat me like a stranger. It is but my own doing, pushing them away, but the walls that i build, that keeps them away are very weak and it requires only a little warmth from them for it to fall apart. But as i had given them no time of my own, i know it is very selfish of me to expect from them.
To those friends, who have always made time, i am very grateful and honored to have your friendship.
But this results in me knowing lesser and lesser about them leading to shorter and shorter conversations until finally we seem to lose touch. I have always been bad in keeping touch with people, but it really saddens me when friends that were once close treat me like a stranger. It is but my own doing, pushing them away, but the walls that i build, that keeps them away are very weak and it requires only a little warmth from them for it to fall apart. But as i had given them no time of my own, i know it is very selfish of me to expect from them.
To those friends, who have always made time, i am very grateful and honored to have your friendship.
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