Edward doesn't exist.

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Edward doesn't exist. I don't know why the hell Stephenie Meyer had to create him? Why she had to give this dream to a girl like me, a die-hard romantic? Why did she feel the need to make girls like me find it so hard to face reality?
Edward doesn't exist.

A normal guy can't be with you 24*7, a normal guy has a living to make, things to do, relations to keep. A normal guy can't remember everything you say, he will falter in his ways, he may make you the centre of his world but his world is still way too vast for him to always concentrate on you.

And Edward is just a fictional character. At the end of the day, we're goanna end up with a normal guy. But now since Edward has dominated the romantic part of my brain, even the best of the normal guy is not good enough.

Edward doesn't exist and yet he does. He's freaking abnormal, and yet he's a dream. Edward, oh! Edward. Why don't you exist??????

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