I thought i hate you, but then i realized, i am you

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I have learned too well to fear you oh world, always worried about what you are goanna say next. always unwilling to follow you but never finding the courage to let go of your hand, fearing what am goanna say to myself when judgement day arrives.
I do feel like saying, "this is my life and what I want counts" but again I think, "my life ain't just mine, I owe it to some people in this world, some very special people, and any decision I make I will always need to consider them.
And considering them, I always end up considering your norms...
Your norms feels like bars of a prison, sometimes it makes me feel secure, sometimes i feel suffocated inside.

i don't have the courage to break your rules, get rid of those bars, because I know I am nothing extra-ordinary, and am not one of those who came on earth to make a significant difference, am just a drop in the ocean. So I have no courage to break free, always scared, trying to please through and through.

I hate your bars, but I am one of you, holding it strong...

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