Drama of the mind
Sometimes life comes crashing down on you with a
single realization, and for a while you do not know where you are, what you
should do or where you should go from that point onwards. I have had these
crashing realizations one after the other and all about the same thing. what I
chose to do everytime was to let life go on, let things go on, and see where it
takes me, to a better place or worse because at that moment there I didn't know
what I was heading to, or should I change my course. There was regret indeed
but I didn't know if the regret was going to get bigger if I walked away or if
I kept walking.
Since then I have taken my chances and kept walking
prepared for pits and abyss, and have met none. But what I didn't realize was I
was walking downhill, down a gradual slope into a deep valley from where there
is no return to the top. But there is a paradox to this, am in a good place,
things worked out for the better. As much as it is bad, it is good at the same
time, at the same level.
Where do I go from here? Today is the day of one of
those crashing realizations? And this time I wanna run... I wanna run away to
my ruin, because ruin seems more justified.
What am I feeling right now? And what do I know to be
true? I know am just a piece of trash.... and I wanna tell the world that I
don't give a s**t. I wanna run away from this and give myself a chance to prove
to myself that I am better than this.
The end.
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